When Adam was last unemployed for a few months, he spent each Saturday sitting with an elderly man in a nursing home. One week, I did this for him, when Adam had something else to do. We'll call the old man Mr. D. We liked Mr. D. He was 91 but in pretty good shape. He'd licked cancer, survived the Navy, buried a wife, and been an artist for many years. He was also a flaming pagan, even in his dotage. He'd lived a debauched life and enjoyed recalling it all. To be painfully honest, he had a filthy mouth and an equally filthy mind, but we loved him. I do not tell this to disparage him; I also found remnants of God's image in him, a man who saw beauty and loved art, who treasured friendship and clung to life. We never gave up trying to show Jesus to him.
I remind myself not to be amazed at the pagans I meet. They feel perfectly normal to them, and I imagine they see me as an oddity, a fringe wacko maybe? I am the one who believes in a God who creates a universe, a virgin who has a baby, a man who comes alive again after dying, and a happily-ever-after life. I don't think that's nutty, but lots of people do.
It must be freeing, in a way, to be a pagan. To put God aside thoroughly and live one's life as one's own master. If your luck holds out, you might have several decades of really good living. If Satan decides not to mess with you, and God ignores you (because He has a bunch of children to raise), you might go sailing on to many successes. It must feel eminently normal to be a pagan in the modern world.
But there it ends. I feel sorry for my pagan friends because I know that their belief system is only good for their 70 or 80 years. It really doesn't work for afterward. And many of them are satisfied with assuring themselves that there is no afterward. You die, and that's it. No consciousness of existence. I think many believe that. If you deny God and all His eventualities in this life, you might as well continue that thinking into the next.
Only ... only, I don't find it very logical. The whole idea that this immense, mind-blowingly complex universe could exist by total accident, is ludicrous to me. And as Sherlock Holmes (or somebody?) said, if you have eliminated all other options, the one remaining, no matter how bizarre it seems, must be true. I can come to no other conclusion than that some entity more grand than the universe, made it. From that, all else follows. He would have an interest in his creation. He would probably want to communicate with it, and involve himself with it. If he's a spirit, it makes sense that he would make us spiritual, so our relationship with him wouldn't end with death.
But God is such a chore. If he does exist, the whole thing becomes so complicated, and requires so much of us. So my pagan friends shrug their shoulders and choose a truly lighter, easier path. For now.
I sat one Saturday afternoon with Mr. D. in the patio area of the nursing home. The chairs were comfortable, the sun was warm overhead after a long, cold winter. We were thrilled to be outside. He was dozy, as was I. As we sat with faces upturned and warmed, and breathed deeply of the sun and color and beauty, I knew he was groggy. I knew also that his artist's heart was tugging at him. Who, even a pagan, can sit in such a place with face up and warmed against blue sky, and not feel a spiritual yearning for beauty? So I played a dirty little trick on Mr. D. I did. I said something like this:
"Wouldn't it be wonderful to go stay in a place just like this all the time -- warm, sunny, beautiful, relaxing, safe -- there is a place like that." I phrased it somehow so that it did not arouse his suspicion.
"Really?" he replied, jostled lightly out of his reverie. He sat up a bit and looked at me. "Where?"
Then I told him simply that it was the beautiful place God was preparing for us, and wouldn't he like to go there? As soon as those words were out of my mouth, Mr. D.'s soul switched back off. He'd detected a whiff of religion, and that put him off.
But for a moment, a few seconds, I had him. He knew inside himself that the New Earth is really simply the place that we all long for. He longs for it. Every pagan longs for it. They just want it without God attached.
I bet this is too preachy to read, and I'm sorry. I wish every pagan I know would suddenly have a light bulb event, and say, "Yes! Of course! It's all so logical, and so very beautiful. Who wouldn't want that?" I hope Mr. D. still wants it. I hope he wants it enough to ask God to take him there.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Choppy Sailing
On Friday, Adam's desperate desire to go sailing finally got the better of him. And I gave in, of course. The sun was bright and the sky was clear. We headed out about 2:00. There was good wind, and thus the river was choppy.
We struggled a bit with the sails. Adam put up the little foresail, so we wouldn't get too much wind (or speed). But he had a twist in the top of the sail. It took him several attempts, going up to the front of the boat while we were clipping along, bouncing from wave to wave, before he untwisted it.
The mainsail also would not go all the way up, and the boom was rotated onto its side. Clearly, we are novices, learning from our mistakes on each outing.
Honestly, after our last sailing adventure, I was a bit skittish. A gust of big wind filled the sails, we heeled over sharply, and I was scared. So this time, I was still nervous of handling the tiller. Adam took it for a while, so I could get myself calmed down.
I took some pictures of the water and sky and reminded myself of how beautiful it all is.
As novice sailors, it's always nice to see other sailboats out when you're sailing. It means you weren't the only total idiot, out on the water on such a day. Actually, there were five other sailboats, plus some power boats, on the river. The afternoon was fine for catching the wind across the river and back again.
Yes, we wore our life vests, plus our sailing jackets. That's a mighty big vest. At the tiller, I'm learning how to keep the boat turned in just the right position to catch the wind as I want. I can tell by looking at the river (its waves) what direction the wind is coming from, and adjust the boat accordingly to catch as much wind (and thus speed) as I feel comfortable with.
Feeling in control is reassuring. Feeling out of control is rather terrifying to me, on a sailboat over water that cold, from shoreline that far away.
The sail master: His hair is getting fluffy and long, but the older ladies at church like his curls, so I can't convince him to chop them off. I think they would be sad if I did. I know he looks grumpy; he's not really grumpy at all.
When we came about, the wind going home was even finer, and we had a nice ride back to the marina. It was about 4:00 or so.
The sun shone through the Spanish moss as it dipped toward the water.
Our home marina -- it's a lovely, comfortable place.
Cold weather has set in now, so we won't be sailing for a bit. Not me, at least!
We struggled a bit with the sails. Adam put up the little foresail, so we wouldn't get too much wind (or speed). But he had a twist in the top of the sail. It took him several attempts, going up to the front of the boat while we were clipping along, bouncing from wave to wave, before he untwisted it.
The mainsail also would not go all the way up, and the boom was rotated onto its side. Clearly, we are novices, learning from our mistakes on each outing.
Honestly, after our last sailing adventure, I was a bit skittish. A gust of big wind filled the sails, we heeled over sharply, and I was scared. So this time, I was still nervous of handling the tiller. Adam took it for a while, so I could get myself calmed down.
I took some pictures of the water and sky and reminded myself of how beautiful it all is.
As novice sailors, it's always nice to see other sailboats out when you're sailing. It means you weren't the only total idiot, out on the water on such a day. Actually, there were five other sailboats, plus some power boats, on the river. The afternoon was fine for catching the wind across the river and back again.
Yes, we wore our life vests, plus our sailing jackets. That's a mighty big vest. At the tiller, I'm learning how to keep the boat turned in just the right position to catch the wind as I want. I can tell by looking at the river (its waves) what direction the wind is coming from, and adjust the boat accordingly to catch as much wind (and thus speed) as I feel comfortable with.
Feeling in control is reassuring. Feeling out of control is rather terrifying to me, on a sailboat over water that cold, from shoreline that far away.
The sail master: His hair is getting fluffy and long, but the older ladies at church like his curls, so I can't convince him to chop them off. I think they would be sad if I did. I know he looks grumpy; he's not really grumpy at all.
When we came about, the wind going home was even finer, and we had a nice ride back to the marina. It was about 4:00 or so.
The sun shone through the Spanish moss as it dipped toward the water.
Our home marina -- it's a lovely, comfortable place.
Cold weather has set in now, so we won't be sailing for a bit. Not me, at least!
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Oh Valentine!
We had a fine Valentine's Day in our neck of the woods. On Valentine's morning, Adam was up early to go hang out with the old geezers who restore wooden boats in Beaufort. I went to hang out with the old ladies who knit/crochet prayer shawls at the Methodist church. Not much romantic, you say? When I was in my car to leave the church, a friend pulled up beside me. She had a box full of camellia blooms in her passenger seat, and she gave me one. She had one for each of the prayer shawl ladies. Love.
Valentine's evening, Adam and I went on our date. We stopped at "the mall," AKA Dollar General - haha! He got me a County Compass, the local free newspaper full of silly ads and off-the-wall stories. It's a fun read, and hey -- it's free! That was nice of him. While I read, he went inside.
He bought: a Tombstone pizza for Julia's dinner, since we were going on a date, a box of Mike-n-Ikes (her favorite), and a bag of peanut M&Ms for us to nibble on while driving to town. More Love.
We tried a new restaurant, highly recommended, called Bella Cucina. Italian, of course, for romance. The setting was lovely, a small space with just tables, quiet music, plus (unfortunately) two loud Yankees next to us. My apologies to my Yankee friends. It's just that, when your ears have accustomed themselves to the smooth, silky sound of gentile Southern for a few years, loud Yankee conversations are particularly grating, in a small space. Have I said enough now? Probably so.
I had a plate of cheese tortellini with chicken and broccoli, in alfredo sauce. Yumm. Adam had something on the chef's special menu -- something like Seafood Adriadica. A pile of good seafood with a fine butter sauce. He liked it a lot. We googe-eyed at each other and chatted as we do. Many happy Valentines together, he and I. Love.
We did some light shopping while we were in town. Adam sat happily in the car while I browsed around Michael's and got a few things -- yarn and paint supplies. Michael's coupons are so welcome. Then I strolled down to T.J. Maxx, where I needed nothing, but enjoyed perusing everything. They have so much chocolate there! They even sell this:
They clearly understand the plight of women. I spent probably one and a half hours in those two stores, just shoving a buggy around and gazing in bliss. With a patient husband who didn't come with me because he knows it makes me feel more rushed somehow, and he wanted me to enjoy myself. That's also Love.
Adam's been making venison jerky lately. He makes a batch, puts it in a bag, and tells me, "Hide this." I had four bags of jerky, hiding amid my yarn stash. Finally, we packaged almost all of it up, and sent it off to the 3 college kids.
Because we Love them.
Valentine's evening, Adam and I went on our date. We stopped at "the mall," AKA Dollar General - haha! He got me a County Compass, the local free newspaper full of silly ads and off-the-wall stories. It's a fun read, and hey -- it's free! That was nice of him. While I read, he went inside.
He bought: a Tombstone pizza for Julia's dinner, since we were going on a date, a box of Mike-n-Ikes (her favorite), and a bag of peanut M&Ms for us to nibble on while driving to town. More Love.
We tried a new restaurant, highly recommended, called Bella Cucina. Italian, of course, for romance. The setting was lovely, a small space with just tables, quiet music, plus (unfortunately) two loud Yankees next to us. My apologies to my Yankee friends. It's just that, when your ears have accustomed themselves to the smooth, silky sound of gentile Southern for a few years, loud Yankee conversations are particularly grating, in a small space. Have I said enough now? Probably so.
I had a plate of cheese tortellini with chicken and broccoli, in alfredo sauce. Yumm. Adam had something on the chef's special menu -- something like Seafood Adriadica. A pile of good seafood with a fine butter sauce. He liked it a lot. We googe-eyed at each other and chatted as we do. Many happy Valentines together, he and I. Love.
We did some light shopping while we were in town. Adam sat happily in the car while I browsed around Michael's and got a few things -- yarn and paint supplies. Michael's coupons are so welcome. Then I strolled down to T.J. Maxx, where I needed nothing, but enjoyed perusing everything. They have so much chocolate there! They even sell this:
They clearly understand the plight of women. I spent probably one and a half hours in those two stores, just shoving a buggy around and gazing in bliss. With a patient husband who didn't come with me because he knows it makes me feel more rushed somehow, and he wanted me to enjoy myself. That's also Love.
Because we Love them.
Friday, February 15, 2013
The Hotel Sagistal
I remember the afternoon in 1985 that we spent at the old
hotel beside the falls south of Iseltwald. In late September we decided
abruptly one morning, over milky tea and bread, that we wanted one more hike
before the snow began. Kathy and I were staying at our bed-and-breakfast for
the winter, a forty room chalet where we’d worked until it closed at the end of
August. The family had left us there with the two dogs and four cats, our pick
of bedrooms, a fine stereo system, and an account at the tiny local grocery. It
was quiet, too quiet.
By 9:00 we’d donned our boots and were on the easy walk into
the hills, the part I liked best with a low stone wall and lightly graveled
path. Kathy was the rugged hiker. We’d trekked all summer among the hills along
the side of the lake, but today she wanted finally to see the falls. It was her
last chance, she said, to hear the cataract rumble into the gorge beneath, on
its way to the cool, blank lake. I agreed. We’d heard of the Hotel Sagistal on
the cliff along that same road. We
did not plan to stop there because, like our chalet, it should be closed by
now.
I think of this today, two decades later, because Kathy’s
postcard, a hurried, scribbled affair, arrived in the mail this morning. She’d
used a photo, a faint, misty picture of the Hotel Sagistal she’d taken that
day, mounted on a square of cardstock. On the back, she wrote: “Remember that
day? The hotel closed for good that year. I plan to go back this summer and
find it again. All is well here. I hope you’re well too. Let me know if you
come to France. All my love,” etc.
The postmark was from Avignon.
Her words did not lure me, as I sat comfortably with my hot
tea in North Carolina, but the photograph did. It resurrected all the old
feelings of longing and dread that I felt as we left the place that day years
ago. In the snapshot, which Kathy took I’m sure in a spontaneous turning around
at the last minute, I’m on the edge, turned also, looking back at the grey
stones and bright moss, kept moist by the spray of the falls. The camera’s eye
is sweeping up, focused on the steep spires and lofty windows of the fourth
floor. My gaze is down though. In the picture, I look over the cliff’s edge,
into the narrow cut of earth along which the building perches like a drunken
parrot, waiting to fall.
The walk was longer than we expected, and in spite of the
approach of winter, we were sweating and peeling layers of clothing as we
neared the falls. We’d heard their continuous crashing for nearly a half hour,
and our anticipation was high. The curve of the narrow road, the location of
the falls, and the dense forest and underbrush prevented us from standing near
the spray. But over the hullaballo of water and rock, we screamed to each other
and grinned. Adventurous Kathy climbed over the rusted metal bars that served
for guard rails on that rural strip of road, and approached as near as she
could to the mist, hoping it might kiss her face, dampen her hair, cool her
neck. Then she looked away and I felt her puzzling over something. She turned
to me, waved, and pointed to the other side of the falls. In a rush, she came
tumbling back to the road.
“Let’s go over there,” she gasped, catching her breath.
“There’s a building, with a porch. We can see the falls better from there.” She
grabbed my hand and we ran down the road that bulged and snuggled its way round
the mountain.
Sure enough, there stood the Hotel Sagistal. Long past its
glory days of the 1930s and ‘40s, it was still an elegant pile, somewhat
Gothic, somewhat Italianate. To me, it seemed to lean slightly into the chasm,
as if the edifice itself longed for a better look at the cataract next door.
Gauzy curtains billowed out of some upper windows, and I marveled that anyone
would have open windows on such a cool day. A stone veranda hugged the building
all around on the ground floor, but it was vacant of chairs and tables.
“That’s the hotel, Kathy. But I think they’re closed,” I
said. I stopped to study it. “It’s very beautiful.”
“It’s the Hotel Sagistal,” she said to me. “I thought it was
somewhere up here.” She looked at
me with a gleam of joy in her eyes. “I didn’t know it was right next to the
falls.” She grinned. “Come on!”
And again with my hand in hers, she pulled me along across
the veranda, and opening the French doors, brought me into the hotel’s cozy
lobby. No one was there.
“They’re closed, Kathy,” I whispered. I don’t know why I
whispered.
“No. Didn’t you see the couple on the balcony? They looked
like guests. I bet they’re open. Let’s see if we can eat lunch here.” And
before I knew it, she’d tapped her palm pertly on the domed bell on the marble
desk. The shrillness echoed lightly into some back passages, and returned with
a thin, sour-faced young woman.
This was the last day they were open for the season, she
said. They offered no rooms for the night, but if we wanted lunch, they could
oblige us. She extended a sinewy arm and pointed through an arch to the dining
room. “Table three, ladies,” she said, and was gone.
The Hotel Sagistal had but ten tables for diners, hardly
enough for their overnight guests if the establishment were full. We found a
small, wobbly tea table next to a bank of four lofty windows facing the open
ravine. Kathy was captivated. I fingered the thin metal stand on the table that
held an oil-stained card, “#3.” Our hiking boots seemed out of place on their
worn velvet in the lobby, and now on their gleaming tile in the restaurant.
“Where are the menus?” I asked Kathy. I forced myself not to
whisper this time.
“Hmm? Oh, I
don’t know. They might not have them. End of the season, you know. Clearing out
the pantry. They probably just have a few things available for lunch.” And she
returned her gaze to the window, where her eyes carried on a noisy love affair
with nature.
I stood to walk about the room. Only then did I notice a man
sitting on the other side, his attention buried in a newspaper. He smoked a
cigarette. I had already stood and faced him, accidentally, so he lowered his
paper and gave a wan smile.
“Hello,” he said blandly.
“Hello,” I replied. “We’re just here for lunch.” He nodded. “Do you know … do they have
menus?”
“It’ll be a chicken salad today, or some such thing,” he
replied, snapping his paper shut. “And the last of the white wine. You can ask
if they have anything else, but it won’t be fancy. This is their last day.”
“Yes, we know.”
He glanced down. “Hiking?”
“Yes. We wanted to see the falls. We thought the hotel would
be closed, and we didn’t realize it was right next to the falls.”
“Oh, yes. From my balcony I can feel the spray quite
strongly. I can’t read my paper out there.”
This at last lured Kathy’s attention away from the windows.
“Really?” she inquired. “That sounds lovely. What floor are you on?”
I felt that was forward, and I gave her a look.
“Third floor,” he answered casually. “Ah, here’s my lunch,”
he said brightly, and turned toward the door. The whey-faced woman entered with an elegant plate of salad,
a bottle, and a stem glass. I returned to my seat.
Kathy shrugged gently at me. “No harm asking,” she
whispered.
“I guess not,” I said, and looked toward our waitress. She
approached.
“We have only salad today,” she said in a bored voice.
“That’s fine,” Kathy and I chimed together.
The lunch was rather good, as I recall, the wine
particularly so. Our fellow diner finished his plate and returned to his
newspaper and a fresh cigarette. When the woman came to remove his plate, Kathy
asked her across the room whether we could walk around the veranda to the other
side of the building, and look at the falls.
“Of course,” she said.
Although it was past noon, the day had turned cold and the
sky was a harsh gray. We re-layered our clothing and scooted out on the
veranda. As we walked past a door onto the narrow lobby, voices lilted to us,
as echoes seemed to do among those walls. A man brusquely spoke to the hotel’s
pale concierge.
“I’m afraid we cannot check out yet.”
“Sir, it is necessary. I have told you and your wife -- you
must leave today.”
We walked past and their muffled discourse fell behind us.
Kathy’s steps quickened; she felt the spray of the falls on her face again and
gravitated to the veranda rail. The stone was slick with water and moss.
“It must always be wet here!” I noted. I wondered why anyone
would build a veranda that would always be damp with water, every day, every
night. Who would want to stand there?
“Yes!” was Kathy’s reply, and I had my answer. Her eyes were
closed in a deep rapture.
I heard a movement behind me. It was the man from the dining
room.
“I say,” he began. “Would you ladies like to see the view
from my room?” He held out his
key. “I’m leaving immediately, bags in the car and all. You can let yourselves
in.” And he dangled a room key
attached to a green fob.
“But,” I stumbled, “What about your key?”
“Oh, they have a little dish on the lobby desk. Just drop it
in there. They won’t mind a bit.” He continued to hold the key before my face,
so I took it. The man smiled uncomfortably at me and glanced at Kathy, who
still stood, mesmerized in mist.
“Well,” he said, and halted. “Do have a good hike
back.” And he was gone.
Kathy left the veranda only with my promise of a better,
higher view closer to the falls, and we walked from the tumult of the water’s
continuous thrumming back into the relative quiet of the hotel. The concierge
had disappeared. This time I led the way, clutching the key. Kathy and I
stepped clumsily in our boots up the velvet carpet of the stairwell as it
curled around the edifice’s core. At the first floor landing we heard voices
raised from somewhere down the dim hall. Two women argued heatedly, one in a
hot temper and the other in the dominant measured tones that indicated control.
At the second floor landing a young man passed us, very young. He muffled an
ineffable reply to our greeting and, brushing past us climbed the stairs
rapidly ahead of us.
The third floor was silent. We went to the door matching the
key number, and entered. The bedroom was surprisingly large, considering the
size of the hotel, and we surmised that this floor contained three suites of
rooms, and nothing else. It was indeed sumptuous and agreeable. I eyed the lush
carpet, the heavy brocade curtains, and the sensuous chaise lounge. A stone
fireplace filled the far end of the room, and two deep armchairs with matching
ottomans beckoned me to sit and warm myself before it.
“We should have come here for a weekend,” I whispered to
Kathy, but she didn’t hear me. She was already at the French window, which slid
open soundlessly. Kathy stepped out and gasped audibly.
“Come look!” she said.
From this position, the falls seemed within reach of our
hands. The veranda did not extend to this side of the building, so we had not
been this close to the water before. Again, I thought how eccentric to build balconies
this near the constant moisture of the falls.
“Kathy, you’ll be wet through,” I whispered, again. “Come
back in.”
“No,” she began. And then we heard the voices.
They were above us, the man and woman. His voice was stern;
hers was sobbing. Instinctively I backed up to the wall beside the window and
pulled at Kathy’s arm, but she didn’t move. The man’s voice elevated and we
could hear him above the thudding of the falls.
“Caroline, we must go. This is no good, you know. She’s not
here! She’s gone. We cannot stay another night, looking. You’ve ruined yourself
with this grieving. Now, Caroline! You must come in!” He was shouting out his
lungs at the last, but the only response she gave was the moaning and
screeching of a human in utter pain, a wholesale release of anger and denial.
Her wails brought to mind the agonies of a mother robbed of her infant, or a
lover betrayed and abandoned. She seemed demented. There was more of this for
several minutes. The man alternately cajoled and commanded, the woman resisting
the force of his demands. My eyes lifted to the stone ceiling above us where
they battled, just a few feet away. I had unwittingly moved to the side of the
balcony rail and regarded above me the matching edge of the balcony overhead.
When the woman screamed and sobbed, I saw her thin white fingers extend through
the stone rails and curl desperately around the worn stone. I clapped my hand
over my mouth to repress a scream myself. Kathy’s gaze followed mine, and we
stood bewitched and horrified.
We heard the man’s voice no more, but a struggle, muffled
somewhat by the noise of the waterfall, ensued above. It was no wild fracas of
kicking and smacking, but a dull, nearly soundless contest of two bodies
wrestling in a small space. A door slammed, and then there was silence. Kathy
and I stared at each other, overwhelmed by the strangeness of the past few
minutes. Again, I leaned against the cool wall, allowing the spray to wash my
face. My friend came also and leaned with me, and we stood as two silent
watchers, scanning across the gray ravine. The water poured thundering down as
it had for so many thousand years.
And then, in one split second that seemed a mistake to the
eye, something fell across our sight. It happened in a blink; indeed a blink
could have caused us to miss it. Something fell from above, and passed in an
instant and went into the ravine. So quickly did it pass that I could not tell
its color or size, except that it seemed larger than a book but smaller than a
bed. There was no sound. I wondered if it were a trick, a mistake of the mind,
except that my eye argued otherwise. Kathy turned her head toward me.
“Did you see that?”
“Yes.”
“What …?”
“I don’t know.”
Slowly, so slowly, we approached the balcony rail together,
and gazed down. And although we studied the twisted mass of trees, rocks, and
mist beneath us, we saw nothing. Slowly, very slowly, we turned our faces up
and studied the balcony above, but no one was there. We did not want to stay
there, perched like damp birds on a ledge. We did not relish returning through
the hotel either.
Finally, I said it. “Come on. Let’s go.”
We rushed down the stairs, my hand gliding along the silky
banister. We met no one there. But on the final flight of steps, we stopped. In
the middle of the lobby, the lean, ashen concierge stood rigid, clutching a
suitcase in one hand and pointing a skinny finger with the other. She addressed
another elderly woman, seated on a low chair beside the desk.
“I will never come back, do you hear? I’ve had enough!” And
here she approached to within a few inches of the old woman’s face. “You are through. This hotel is through.” She nearly spat the words. “You old witch.” She backed away. “Enough!” she said again, soft and fierce. She turned
quickly and exited through the dining room. Her heels rapped confidently on the
tiles.
We did not move until she was gone. I approached the desk,
but the old woman did not look up. She was slumped over, her back hunched as
only an old, arthritic back can be. Her crooked fingers curled over her
forehead and into the wisps of steely hair tightly bound in a bun. She cried
silently into her palms. I dropped the key into the empty dish. Her head jerked
up at this, and a pair of bleary gray eyes looked at me. Her wizened face was
wet with tears.
“I …” I began. “We …” but I could not finish. She continued
her mute stare, as she sat there, a trembling mass of gray and damp.
Outside, the concierge’s car was grinding out of the parking
lot as we escaped the building. No other vehicles remained. We walked quickly
to the road and turned to go back down the mountain. But as I passed the falls,
in spite of the loathing and dread I felt in doing so, I stopped and turned,
and looked up at the Hotel Sagistal. From this position, the balconies facing
the falls protruded clearly from its side. On the third floor was the balcony
where we’d stood. On the second floor, the old woman leaned over the balcony
rail, her thin gray hair fallen from its restraints, her shoulders heaving in
sorrow. Two thin arms draped from those shoulders toward the falls, and I
thought I heard wave upon wave of sobbing moans from her ancient throat. And on
the fourth floor, sheer white curtains billowed out like sails, over the
balcony and into the roaring mist. I felt I could almost touch them. That was
the last day of the Hotel Sagistal. We hiked back to the village in a soft rain
that turned that night into snow.
That was over twenty years ago. Evidently Kathy and her new
husband did leave Avignon in his Lamborghini and drive to Iseltwald. They found
the hotel. About ten days later, I received a lengthy missive from her, which
contained this puzzling portion:
The hotel was pitiful, deserted. I did enjoy seeing the falls,
but I longed to stand on the balcony again, such a superior view. What an
enchanted place! Our host in the village told me about the old woman we saw
that day. She owned the hotel, and had for many years. It was a boring, stodgy
old place, except for one piece of excitement long ago (in the ‘50s, I think?)
when horribly, a baby was dropped accidentally from one of the balconies and
died in the falls. They never recovered its body. I thought, of course, of the
young couple we heard. But they were too young – she wouldn’t have been born in
the ‘50s. I couldn’t figure it out. I did ask whether anybody else had ever
died there, and he said no, not that he’d ever heard. I do still wonder what it
was we saw that day. If we didn’t both see it, I would not have trusted my own
eyes. He said the local rumor is that the hotel is haunted by women who moan
and wail, and that some villagers claim to have seen them on the balconies
where we stood.
The letter went on to other matters. I was glad not to have
seen the Hotel Sagistal in its present state. In spite of its sadness, I prefer
to remember it on the day when we were the last patrons to drop a key in the
dish. The women, whoever they are, possess its rooms and views now wholly, with
no one to intrude on their mourning.
- by M.K. Christiansen
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
A Gift
My new coffee cup. Friends gave two of these to me yesterday when they came for a visit, a nice, chatty, warm visit that lasted most of the day. Isn't it beautiful? It has a large, deep bowl.
Adam brings me coffee and OJ each morning while I'm still snoozing in bed; he's a sweetie. It helps me wake up since I am not a morning person.
Adam brings me coffee and OJ each morning while I'm still snoozing in bed; he's a sweetie. It helps me wake up since I am not a morning person.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Valentine Cookies
I just made these yummy cookies from Sandra's recipe over at Thistle Cove Farm. They are easy and good!
They're put together like an Oreo cookie, but they're strawberry.
Doesn't this look good?
I'll post the recipe below. I did put this platter in the freezer for about 20 minutes, to help the filling set up and be firmer. These will go to our church's pot luck dinner this evening.
Strawberry Valentine Cookies:
1 box strawberry cake mix
1/2 - 3/4 cup vegetable oil
2 eggs
Mix these 3 ingredients in your mixer until it forms a dough stiff enough to roll into small 1/2" balls. Place these on an ungreased cookie sheet and bake them for 8-10 minutes at 350º. They should crack on the top and get puffy. Do not let them brown. Remove and cool completely on racks.
8 oz. container strawberry cream cheese
1/2 cup softened butter
1 tsp. vanilla
about 4 cups of sugar
Mix these ingredients in your mixer with a whisk attachment until creamy and stiff enough to spread. Spread between 2 cookies and gently press together.
That's it! A fun cookie for a fun holiday.
They're put together like an Oreo cookie, but they're strawberry.
Doesn't this look good?
I'll post the recipe below. I did put this platter in the freezer for about 20 minutes, to help the filling set up and be firmer. These will go to our church's pot luck dinner this evening.
Strawberry Valentine Cookies:
1 box strawberry cake mix
1/2 - 3/4 cup vegetable oil
2 eggs
Mix these 3 ingredients in your mixer until it forms a dough stiff enough to roll into small 1/2" balls. Place these on an ungreased cookie sheet and bake them for 8-10 minutes at 350º. They should crack on the top and get puffy. Do not let them brown. Remove and cool completely on racks.
8 oz. container strawberry cream cheese
1/2 cup softened butter
1 tsp. vanilla
about 4 cups of sugar
Mix these ingredients in your mixer with a whisk attachment until creamy and stiff enough to spread. Spread between 2 cookies and gently press together.
That's it! A fun cookie for a fun holiday.
Friday, February 8, 2013
Photos from a Bike Ride
On sunny days, the river of diamonds appears here. What wealth!
As usual, these photos are from a recent bike ride. But temperatures here are still generally too chilly for bike riding, and it's the occasional day that is both calm and warm enough.
This lovely sycamore tree has a huge hole.
Somebody built a big next in there. The hole goes through to the other side, as you see. What family of critters was snug in there for the winter, I wonder? Birds? Squirrels?
That water is crying out for sailboats in it, don't you think? We haven't been sailing for a while now -- too cold or too windy. Or not windy enough. Or (more likely) we're too busy with life and work.
The flowering quince is looking brilliant right now. It's so elegant. But the recent hard frosts we had, withered some of the blossoms.
As usual, these photos are from a recent bike ride. But temperatures here are still generally too chilly for bike riding, and it's the occasional day that is both calm and warm enough.
This lovely sycamore tree has a huge hole.
Somebody built a big next in there. The hole goes through to the other side, as you see. What family of critters was snug in there for the winter, I wonder? Birds? Squirrels?
That water is crying out for sailboats in it, don't you think? We haven't been sailing for a while now -- too cold or too windy. Or not windy enough. Or (more likely) we're too busy with life and work.
The flowering quince is looking brilliant right now. It's so elegant. But the recent hard frosts we had, withered some of the blossoms.
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