|our home in Statesville|
I struggle with that. I long for a home that belongs to me. God knows this longing. I suspect He knows it's an inordinately strong and motivating longing for me. So my home-ownership history is a troubled one. We've
I know how hard it is to be a homemaker.
Reading recently in II Samuel and I Chronicles I found comfort in David's dilemma. He'd just moved to Jerusalem and built himself a whopping big mansion with the help of another monarch who gave him cedar wood and lent him carpenters and stonemasons. David had a huge family, with room for them all.
|The Lady Banks rosebush at my Statesville house that I miss quite a lot|
And his motives are good. He asks Nathan the prophet, and Nathan agrees. "Go, do all that is in your mind, for the LORD is with you." But they're both wrong.
God has His own plan, of course. He doesn't need David to build Him a house. And it's not just that somebody else has been picked to built it. It's that David has the whole concept wrong. David is not the home-maker; God is the home-maker. Always has been, always will be.
God says to David: (paraphrase) "Have I ever had a house? Did I ask for a house? Do I need a house?" (answers: no, no, no) He reminds David, however, of other facts: "I will also appoint a place (a home) for my people Israel and will plant them, that they may live in their own place ...." And "The LORD also declares to you that the LORD will make a house for you." Of David's son, God says "He shall build a house for My name ...." and "I will be a father to him and he will be a son to me." And to David He promises, "And your house and your kingdom shall endure before Me forever ...." (II Sam. 7)
David learns some humbling lessons here. In his prayer he says to God, "For Thou, O LORD of hosts, the God of Israel, has made a revelation to Thy servant saying, 'I will build you a house': therefore Thy servant has found courage to pray this prayer to Thee .... Now therefore, may it please Thee to bless the house of Thy servant, that it may continue forever before Thee."
David learns two things: 1) God is the house-builder, the home-maker, and 2) a house isn't really a boxy thing made of semi-permament materials. It's a family. David realizes that his family, his kingly line (leading to Jesus!), is the real home.
We can't buy another home anytime soon, because of the foreclosure. I'm almost 50 years old and wondering if we'll ever own a home to live in when we're too old to work. What will happen then? God says, "I am the home-maker, Mary Kathryn. Stop worrying about it." I have friends my age who started buying their homes 25 years ago, and they own their homes free and clear. They've put down deep roots, planted trees and gardens, redone rooms and added porches. Sadly though, some of them have no children, or no longer have a marriage. I'm reminded that it's the relationships that matter. And although "interior decoration" is important for women (and I love home-making!), the real interior that needs help is the interior of my heart. And like David, I need reminding that it's my husband and children who really constitute home.
(I'm linking up to Cindy at Ordo Amoris for this post relating to homemaking.)